The story behind "This Life"


“This Life” is the perfect song for the current season I’m in because it’s about moving. It’s the emotions that come with changing seasons. Saying goodbye. The confusion of grief and happiness.You can feel so many emotions at the same time. I’m really excited about this song because I can relate to it now in this moment and the creation process was super satisfying.

It makes me excited about what I might do in the future.


A few months ago (when we started planning the move) I felt a pit in my stomach. I have to say goodbye to my friends. The only way I knew how to cope with this realization was to write a song. The next day I went into a recording session and played the chorus line that I had written and it got a great response.


The next week I reached out to an instagram friend of mine, Baily Hager, to see if she could put a demo together for it. She hit the nail on the head with the vibe and gave me a clear direction on where I was taking this thing.


When Tj and I were planning our move to Nashville, I got connected with an artist (Holly Halliwell) who was moving there with her husband, just a couple months earlier. We both knew that we were gonna need a familiar face around those parts and began getting to know each other a little better. Her husband, Walter, is a super talented producer and I knew I wanted to work with him at some point.


After sitting on that demo for a good month I thought “why not?” and asked Walter if he’d be interested in taking on the project COMPLETELY REMOTE. As someone who just went through these emotions themselves, I felt it was super sentimental to have a new TN friend work on a song for my OR friends. Did I mention we did this all long distance?!?!


After that… the rest is history. We got it mastered with Jonathan Berlin and It was brought to what it is today and I am super stoked with the outcome. I actually had the photos I’m using for it way before the song was written and the vibe just fits. (Shout out to Olivia Martens Photo!)


Each line of this song is dedicated to a set of friends here in Portland, OR. Each one has a special memory and meaning behind it.


It hasn't hit me yet that we are leaving but I’m really excited to have a piece of them included in my music. Please enjoy the official lyrics ❤️



This Life

I’ll never forget the moments that we shared

I’ll never forget how you were always there

Now I’m thinking of leaving

And it makes me kinda sad

Never thought when we first got here

We’d have moments like we had


Having this life is new to me

It’s new to me

It’s new to me

Having this life is new to me

It’s new to me

It’s new to me


I’ll always remember the words to the songs we sang

I’ll always admit you made my life here great

Now I’m moving, pursuing

The dreams I’ve always had

And to think that this gets better only makes me want it bad


Having this life is new to me

It’s new to me

It’s new to me

Having this life is new to me

It’s new to me

It’s new to me






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